This post is a personal note from me to those who have been following my blog for a while. I am writing to ask you for prayer.
The Lord has called me on a 12-day Fast beginning tomorrow, December 1 through December 12. It is a 12-day Fast because 12 is the number of government (as well as completion, authority, order, etc.). Not only do I feel led to pray specifically for the government mountain right now, but I am also asking the Lord for personal breakthrough in my own assignment. To make a long story short – I am weary and feeling a bit lost. I desperately need clarity for the days ahead.
They say that a prophet can more easily discern what God is doing in others around them but can’t always discern themselves. I know this can be true. I have always valued the input and feedback from others and am a total team-player. I only see in part and am only one voice among thousands. Sometimes I wonder what difference I can really make when there are so many other qualified prophetic voices out there. Even so, I want to do my part and do it well. I am at the point in my life and ministry when I’m tired of trying to build something. I don’t have the energy to build a ministry, create a following, or pioneer a project. I’ve already written the book, recorded the album, and planted the church. In fact, I have actually seen God fulfill EVERYTHING that He has already put on my heart to do. It’s been amazing. So…I am now at the point where – praise God – I’m at the end of myself. Good thing – right!
What my heart and spirit long for – more than anything else – is to simply KNOW HIM. There is a realm of the Spirit that I have yet to access. I believe it is in this realm of the Spirit where greater revelation lies for the days ahead. There is a kingdom government that overshadows our earthly government and it is this place in the Spirit that believers need to access – not just by faith, but by encounter. My spirit is being drawn like never before to access this reality.
Ever since an angel came to me in 2002, I have had a gift of revelatory dreams. Most of the prophetic words God has given me through the years have come through dreams. Several years ago, I began to ask the Lord to take me deeper – take me higher. Dreams are actually the lowest level of revelation because they can be so subjective. Visions are more reliable, but face-to-face encounters are the best! Ultimately, my desire is to be like Moses who saw Jesus face-to-face (Numbers 12:6-7). My challenge is to get past all the media distractions and information in order to feed my spirit to this end. This is what I am praying through in my fast.
I also have learned through the years that I LIVE the Word of the Lord before I release it. Everything that I have released about this past election came as a result of a personal journey the Lord took me through this summer where I lived a process that mirrored exactly what was going to happen at the national level. It is still unfolding and everything I experienced is coming to pass. It is for this reason that I believe what I am feeling and experiencing is not for me alone. I carry the heartbeat of the body of Christ in this nation and I know many are feeling lost like me. (I’m certainly not the only one who carries this heart – I’ve just come to recognize that not everything I “feel” is personal, but corporate.) We are at a huge transition point as the church in this nation and there is no road map. I am praying that whatever breakthrough I can experience personally will open the door for others.
The one revelation the Lord has given me which I want to leave with you is this: This next season is not so much about our passion for the Lord, but His passion for us. The focus of much intercession in this past season has been to bring us all to a place of desperation and hunger for the Lord. It has focused on how much passion we have for Him. I truly believe that what the Lord wants to reveal to us in this next season is His passion for us. In Isaiah 9:7 it says that the increase of His government will never end and it is “…the zeal of the Lord” that will accomplish this. That zeal is His passion – for US. I believe there is a level of His zeal and passion for us that He LONGS to pour out. This is what I long to know personally. I grew up under a huge Religious Spirit and have fought it all my life. The enemy has haunted me, always telling me I’m not doing enough to prove my love for the Lord. I have stood against those lies and found much freedom. Yet – I know there is a greater revelation of His passion for me that I have yet to truly know.
If you’ve made it this far in my post – thank you :-). If the Lord puts me on your heart in the next 12 days, I welcome your prayers. I also welcome any insight or word that the Lord might give to you regarding this fast. You can comment here on this blog, or email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I have been so incredibly blessed by those who have chosen to “follow” me on this journey. Your comments inspire me and have encouraged me to keep pressing in. I pray that YOU might know Him and SEE Him like never before. He is such a good, good Father.